Potential Lost
I wanted to be able to play. But instead, I am stuck in work. I wanted to be able to travel. But instead, I am stuck at home.
I wanted to be with someone loving and exciting and beautiful. I ended up with someone too brain damaged to care. I wanted to make love on a regular basis. Instead I ended up married…. twice.
I wanted to have children when I was young. Now I am too old to keep up with my daughter, and the distance between us will only grow. I wanted to have lots of friends. But, generally, most people despise me.
I wanted to be treated honestly, and I gave honesty in exchange. Instead people misinterpret me, and give lies to my face. I wanted to be liked, and I gave friendship in exchange. But I am not liked, I am at best tolerated by all but a choice few.
I wanted to have the freedom to dance. But life crushes me, and I am bound. I wanted to have the gift to sing. But the mountains of tears have broken my voice. I wanted to have the time to draw, and the talent to paint, but all I can do is type, and scratch. I wanted to ski, and swim, and ride, but now I can barely walk.
I wanted health, and happiness, but my body is dying all around me. I wanted wealth and well-being, but life has given me nothing.
I wanted to do things that were important, but my life is insignificant. I wanted to be someone special, but I am just a clone.
I fight the battle daily, but I am torn apart. I never win, but the battle rages on, and the front never moves.
I wanted to have a life, but I failed. I took the F. And now all I have is a lie.